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God its fucking hurting again… I was in the middle of working on my projects when I had that thought

i can feel that urge, the one i’ve been getting over and over and trying to stop. i fucking hate

Its been some time since I’ve made a new log so adding one now… Each and every day, at least

I had some interesting things go through my mind today apparently. This…dream of having a wonderful house in the hills,

another task taken care of on the cluster… and yet more dreams, memories, thoughts…failures…to attribute to my logs. its as

The more I focus on trying to quit porn and go back to just imagination and fantasies…the better it seems

It appears I’m once again getting that need for sex again…but it feels…empty. I keep getting these thoughts of going

I lie awake in the middle of the night here, wondering so many things. How do I continue to keep

i can feel myself slipping again and i dont know why…its hard to tell at the moment. but i know it is about how you hold yourself and how well you can keep up. i just gotta stay up enough until it keeps itself up for the time being.

The opprotinity to potentially complete my life and I hope he would feel the same…but I should be prepared for the worst at all times…